Kristina--this is important stuff and I am glad you are giving it voice. As a psychiatrist I hate to hear when someone copes with an N by saying : "F--- then, they are pieces of s---." They are cultivating the same devaluing that a narcissist uses to deal with conflict. You can stand strong and look them in they eye and say "I do not like that" or "I do not agree with you." You may be scarred but you must keep your dignity intact for the future. Please keep up this writing.